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    Gastric Sleeve Member Licilu's Avatar
    I have had a gastric sleeve.
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    Alyse
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    Default Binge Eating Disorder

    I can't believe how little posts there are in this area, how can one deal with the pain of obesity and not acknowledge an issue with food?

    I used to binge.... I would not throw up but I would compulsively eat thousands of calories a day, I was obsessed with food all day, every day, for years.... I would spend my last dollar on food, I had favorite restaurants all over the place, I have gone from one fast food restaurant drive thru to the next in one car ride. I use to find wrappers or food paraphanalia everywhere. I had rituals, I would order from each of my favorite restaurants alternating each night of the week... BBQ, Thai/sushi, italian/pizza, Chilis, chinese, mexican, etc.... I would order one or several appetizers, a main course, sometimes more than one main course, and a dessert, sometimes several desserts, then I would sit down in front of the tv and put on my favorite show, or a movie and I would just gorge until I couldn't barely breath, it would happen so fast... its like I would just zone out and stuff as much into my mouth as fast as possible and I would try to absorb all of the flavors like a high... and when I was done, I would start to feel the guilt and the shame, the depression and the anxiety creep in....then I would wake up feeling like crap, bloated, miserable and of course, fatter...I would find new stretchmarks forming all the time, it became a regular dissapointment. I hated the mirror, I hated my clothes, I hated the way I looked when I would walk out the door to face the world. I started wearing spandex tights under everything, mostly tunics... for Gods sake why would I choose spandex over my huge ass? Because it had give in the waist and never cut me off, it stretched and was comfortable, anything with an elastic waistband and what I didn't realize about this was that I was able to gain a massive amount of weight without realizing it b/c the tights just stretched with my body, I never had to deal with my clothes not fitting b/c everything I wore stretched.... I avoided the scale as well. It is like I literally set out to destroy myself. Why would someone do this to themselves? Pain... I was in pain and I didn't want to feel it hurt so I used, I used food to try and comfort, distract.... the very thing that gave me comfort from pain was the thing that was hurting me, a vicious cycle of abuse. I never, ever thought that I would beat this, I felt stuck, hopeless, I basically gave up on myself, and life. And now..... I am free, I am given a way back to myself and I will not take this for granted! Not only am I physically not able to binge.... this surgery has completely changed the way I think and feel about food and the act of eating. I no longer live to eat, I eat to live! Amazing. =)

    Here is a video I took of my "last meal" it was my last time binging before surgery, I look at all of this food and I can not imagine consuming that much!
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    Gastric Sleeve Member carolynodien's Avatar
    I have had a gastric sleeve.
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    Carolyn
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    Default Re: Binge Eating Disorder

    That was beautiful...absolutely! I had similar tendencies and I felt insatiable; a bottomless pit of hunger. Thank god we were able to utilize this miracle of a surgery, huh?! I am so grateful for the liberation from the obsession. I like feeling full (hardly ever happened before, maybe after Thanksgiving dinner).

    Congratulations!!!! xox
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    Gastric Sleeve Member Saras_Sleeve's Avatar
    I have had a gastric sleeve.
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    Default Re: Binge Eating Disorder

    I can relate to so much of this post. It's just hard to admit it publicly when this has been a 'secret shame' for so many years. Well done for sharing. Always good to know you are not alone in life!


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    Gastric Sleeve Member Mushaboomer's Avatar
    I have had a gastric sleeve.
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    Default Re: Binge Eating Disorder

    Wow, it's like you crawled in my messed up head and put the crazy in words, thank you so much for sharing, I haven't had the surgery yet and yesterday I was feeling overwhelmed by thoughts of failure and you gave me something to hope for. I know 3 people who were not successful after the sleeve and I was getting freaked out, so thanks again, your post gave me hope.



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    Gastric Sleeve Member compact's Avatar
    I have had a gastric sleeve.
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    Nel
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    Mr Stephen Watson
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    Default Re: Binge Eating Disorder

    Thank you Alyse. It's true that being honest is the key to healing.



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    Gastric Sleeve Member Tabby's Avatar
    I have had a gastric sleeve.
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    Default Re: Binge Eating Disorder

    You are so right! That is exactly it. I used to love that "over full" feeling. I thought it was my comfort...how strange that it's now so uncomfortable! So happy for you that you have made these self discoveries and you are on a different path now.


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    Gastric Sleeve Member MaryFromTheD's Avatar
    I have had a gastric sleeve.
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    Mary
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    Default Re: Binge Eating Disorder

    Hi Alyse,
    Actually I have seen quite a few posts about people struggling with binge eating. I know from my own experience, I had a long-term love affair with sweets which I liked to hide in my purse. I was so ashamed of my "dirty little secret" that it was only recently (in the past few years) that I admitted it to my hubby what I had been doing since childhood. He always thought I ate "healthy" and could not figure out why the weight wouldn't budge. I can totally relate to the "high" after gorging on my drug of choice. I also vividly recall feeling comforted by the thought of having candy (usually chocolate) waiting for me when ever I needed it. It was only after I started talking about what I had been hiding for years that it lost allot of power over me.
    Thank you for sharing your story and I wish you the best of luck in your journey.
    Mary



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    I have had a gastric sleeve.
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    Default Re: Binge Eating Disorder

    Thank you for sharing your experiences, I think it is really helpful so we can support each other, but it isn't correct to assume that everyone who is overweight has a binge eating disorder. I am a person with a long history of eating too much for what I needed, having seconds at dinner, snacking in the evening, having treats/desserts too often but I didn't do what many binge eaters describe such as getting multiple meals from drive up restaurants etc. Of the many things I tried for weight loss, I have gone to counseling a couple of different times to try to address "the reasons why I overeat". The fact that I pretty much always felt hungry combined with lousy habits seems to me my primary issues with food. I came to the conclusion that my eating was disordered (ie lacked discipline) and certainly I fell into the stress eating trap and all that, but it wasn't binge eating per se. For me, I just always felt hungry and seemed like opportunities to eat were just too frequent.

    I have found that the food reduction post surgery has not created the dramatic emotional response - at least yet - that people warn about. I still do marvel at how little food it really takes to keep me going, like wow, I must have a low metabolism or something. The surgery has helped me so much by reducing that constant hunger, but i am still pretty early in the journey and time tells. I am committed to making permanent lifestyle changes, but the skeptic in me reminds me of the time on Weight Watchers when I lost 85# and committed to permanent changes. It took me several years to gain back 50 of those pounds, so i guess I made some headway, but that long term maintenance does scare me a little based on my track record.
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    Gastric Sleeve Member gemini_1984's Avatar
    I have had a gastric sleeve.
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    Stacey
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    Default Re: Binge Eating Disorder

    WOW! That was a very powerful and emotional post...kudos to you for sharing! I can certainly relate to the desire to feel full...I'm always worried about the portion sizes when I eat. Granted I typically only eat during meal times (i.e. breakfast, lunch & dinner) I find myself not trying new things from the menu when we go out to eat because I'm worried I won't get full. I can't wait to have that very outlook on food - a healthier outlook.

    Again thanks for sharing
    Stacey



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    Gastric Sleeve Member Kay Black's Avatar
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    Default Re: Binge Eating Disorder

    OK, Ya'll been in my head??? Seriously, this WAS my life!

    And now that I've had the surgery those thoughts and feelings have not gone away! I KNOW I can not eat like before ... my stomach will not let me ... but the thoughts and feelings are still there! My habits were awful, my lack of exercise and the emotional eating (didn't matter what emotion) were slowly killing me! I don't know how many weight loss programs I tried and spent money for, OH the money I've wasted! I don't want my surgery to be a waste! I need to learn new habits, new ways of dealing with emotions, and most of all get my butt out there to exercise! My Doctor told me that the people who do not become a success are those that don't make those emotional changes along with keeping a journal of what we eat daily, exercising daily, and using the help and support of a support group! I need each and everyone of you, your stories, support and encouragement. Thanks for being here on this journey with me!!! I still need to get the exercise thing down ... I just hate the whole idea of it!!!!



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    I have had a gastric sleeve.
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    Default Re: Binge Eating Disorder

    Thank you for sharing this! You wrote my story. My mind has been telling me to rethink this surgery because maybe I wasn't the right fit for this surgery with these tendencies but you have convinced me otherwise. I have not had my surgery yet and have had a hard time with the weight loss requirement prior to the surgery but I have been going to support groups and have been feeling much better and the weight is slowly coming off. This is a journey that we are all on together. I sure am grateful for this website!!!!


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    Gastric Sleeve Member gemini_1984's Avatar
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    Default Re: Binge Eating Disorder

    I feel you on the exercie thing...it's soooo hard to get going, BUT once you do it feels soooo good! When I have dieted in the past and added exercise to my routine I would look forward to the feeling you get when you get off the treadmill after 45min to an hour and try walking normal on the floor - at least for me anyways it would always feel like I was floating. LOL You just have so much more energy during the day too!



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    I have had a gastric sleeve.
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    Default Re: Binge Eating Disorder

    So well said! I've always been a closet eater. Even if I am not eating a lot I would just prefer to eat alone in front of the television and have my personal relationship my food alone - no interruptions from anyone, etc. A few weeks ago when I realized this would be no more I went frantically searching for a McDonalds for my last Big Mac. I went by one that was too crowded with young kids and kept walking. I did not find one for over 1 mile (went down every block in NYC that did not have one LOL). Hopped on train because I knew where to go and when I finally got my Big Mac there was something funky in it (hard, small, black). I have no idea what it was but it turned me off so bad and I realized that I wasn't stopping to get this Big Mac until I was actually disgusted by the food. It was some kind of karma or divine intervention? I was so ready to gorge (along with an order of chicken mcbites). It all went back for a refund. There are days my hands shake from the desire to just grab food and I can't because I am on my last week prior to surgery. It really is an addiction in my life and I cannot wait until the desire helps to lessen the need to fill the hunger that I am always feeling.



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    Gastric Sleeve Member yankegal's Avatar
    I have had a gastric sleeve.
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    Default Re: Binge Eating Disorder

    what a heart warming testimony! you are doing wonderful, keep up the great work and remember we are all human, we all make mistakes, but we are lucky that we are able to make changes to our lives. Best of luck to you, please keep us posted on your progress! this is a real story that everyone on here should read. it helps lots of folks that are in the same boat so to speak! Dr Kelly was my dr and he was great!



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    I have had a gastric sleeve.
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    Default Re: Binge Eating Disorder

    I can completely relate. I did this too. Food was such an obsession, and it was a deep shame to know what I was doing to my body.


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