Maybe it's from lack of knowledge before actually having the surgery, but I've become very worrisome about my weight and stomach. I had no pain after surgery, and I've never lost sight of what I'm eating to the point where I'm keeled over in pain. I work out at least three days a week, usually five, at an average of forty-five minutes a day. Some days I eat more than others, but it has never been an outrageous amount. Honestly my meals have yet to go over one cup, and depending on what it is it might be less than that.
As my stalling hasn't gotten longer, and it seems that I'm bloating up more, I've become more stressed. In all honesty I also don't see where I've lost the 40-45 pounds, I don't appear any different to myself except for looking pudgier. I've had an uncle with the surgery, and a family friend, and I don't see myself having the success that they have had. They always ask how I'm doing, and it makes me feel bad. I have a dad who wants me to weigh any time it pops into his head because I keep stalling out. Within the last two weeks I'm back in the classroom for most of the week with a ton of girls that I haven't tolerated for the last year, especially when the only thing they seem to talk about amongst themselves is that they're one hundred pounds and feeling obese.
I don't know, it seems like a ton of stressors have come out of nowhere all at once, and I'm freaking out. I don't want to stay this way, I want to lose my weight and get it off immediately. I'm tired of stalling and not having answers, and I don't want to stretch out my stomach again. It's just so draining.
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