It's been awhile. Here's why and I have a question...

Ok, so I am physically, mentally and emotionally struggling. Everything that has happened over the last few months seems to have JUST dropped on my shoulders which we all know is not true. It suddenly became overwhelming and it has caused me to seclude myself, even texting conversations. I was planning on taking a weekend for just me and then I went to the dentist yesterday. They were supposed to pull 3 teeth but because they go according to income to decide the payment, they are required to finish with said patient in a certain amount of time. Well, that lead to only getting 2 teeth pulled because they were brittle from the IV steroids. I got them pulled and drove halfway home. I had to stop at Walmart for some things for the kids, my antibiotics and decided to try on some clothes/bathing suits. I felt tingling in my lips so I knew that the feeling was going to be coming back soon so I needed to get home to take a pain pill. I walked to the pharmacy just to find out that it wasn't a $4 script like it showed on their website. It was $71... I ended up having to switch it to Kroger so I could get it for $15 but it was going to be 40 minutes before I could pick it up. I still had 30 minutes to drive home. By the time it was ready, my mouth was throbbing and it felt like I had been hit in the jaw by a mack truck! I took a pain pill when I got home within 20-30 minutes, the pain had eased a bit. I decided to make the pureed soup that I had planning on. I put 1 box of bone broth in a pan with 1 bag of shelled edamame, 1 bag of frozen asparagus spears, 1 bag of frozen spinach, 1 bag of frozen broccoli, 1 can of chunk chicken breast and 2 cups of chicken broth... I boiled everything for 30 minutes, let it cool completely and pureed it. I ended up with 7.5 cups by the time I was done. Because I couldn't drink anything until almost noon, it took me until 11pm to get my 64 ounces of water in. At 11:30, I scooped up 1/2 cup (4 ounces) of soup. I took ONE bite and was full... so full that I had that road froth y'all always talk about. Then in the middle of the night, I woke up with the worst heartburn I think I've ever had. It made me nauseous and next thing I know, I'm hugging the toilet. I ate some tums and I was fine after that. Everything that was put in my soup was low sodium so that shouldn't have been the cause of my heartburn. I tried looking up if anybody has had heartburn after having teeth extracted and didn't find anything other than fevers. When I woke up, I was pouring sweat. My hair felt like I had just gotten out of the shower. So I've had medium amounts of pain this morning. Got 16 ounces in and decided to eat some soup for lunch. ONE bite fills me up! Now I have heartburn from the pits of hell! What is up with that!!!??? I can't chew anything so how am I going to get my protein when I have 7.5 cups of soup that would have been perfect... I'm so incredibly frustrated. Well, this is the straw that broke the camel's back. Last night, the family we are living with told the kids "Mama can't talk right now so if you need something, you need to come to us?" What do they do? They come to me... one will say "Mama..... Mama", then the other one will say "no don't ask mama! She can't talk!"... then the first one says, "but... wait, hold on! Mama!"... I don't want to take my pain out on them or get irritated with them for calling for their mother... so, I got a motel room 30 minutes away and I'm going silent for 2 days. I'll keep my phone on for emergencies but I HAVE TO escape! My body and mind desperately need it. Y'all please tell me if you've experienced the heartburn issue...

Take some much needed time for yourself and try, there's absolutely nothing wrong with that. I can't offer any advice on the heartburn, I am lucky not to have experienced any yet.

Enjoy your time out session and I hope you get to feeling better soon!

Oh Michelle, what an awful time you are having.
I can't offer anything practical I'm sorry.
Please, please, make sure that you look after yourself.
Sending you lots of love.
x

I feel for you Michelle, you are a favorite of mine on this forum and have reached out to help me so I hope you get some peace and quiet and can relax some. A lot of us haven't been sleeved yet and need you expertise and help so I hope you feel better real soon.

Sending All Good Thoughts and Prayers xoxo

Sorry to hear about the tough times. Sending you hugs. xx

Are you on something for the heartburn? Have you talked to your doctor? It doesn't seem right for surgery in October. Some people with uncontrolled heartburn have had to convert to bypass.

Feel better, teeth can hurt worse than anything. Glad you are taking some time to just concentrate on yourself.

I'm sorry you're having these issues! If you weren't getting the heartburn before the pain meds, maybe that's the cause? I'd call my doctor just to be sure. Good Luck!

I can't give you any advice about the heartburn, except consult with a doctor.
But I am sending you love, light and prayers.
We all know moms have to stay strong, but also moms have their limits...
Take good care of yourself sweetie!

Thank y'all for your responses. The heartburn had only happened because of my teeth being pulled. I ended up dealing with dry socket and an abscessed gum. Its still pretty dang sore but my heartburn is gone. The doctor said that its normal to get heartburn occasionally. It is when it is daily that you have to worry. I got a motel room for a couple days and then secluded myself at my sisters house the 3rd day. My husband had his first visitation that day so I went there too. It was actually healing for me a little bit to go there. The kids are with my mom this week because she's been in New York for 2.5 months. So I'm getting the much needed time that I needed to recharge my batteries. I'm feeling much better in all aspects. I have been through so much in my life and I've never had a nervous breakdown. I've never been paralyzed by my grief. Not to the point I was this day. I appreciate y'alls thoughts and prayers! Always!

(((((Michelle)))))

Sending much love and light xoxoxo

You go Michelle! :D