I'm trying to figure out why I am not at all excited about having the surgery. I've started my 2 week liquid diet so I am aware of how soon the surgery is -- A lot of people on the site are excited -- but me, I'm dreading it -- even though I know that I need it. I realize that I am also really angry! Angry at myself -- that I let my weight and health get out of control. So for now, there is fear, apprehension, and made. Maybe excitement will come later. . . .