so last night was a crazy night !!!i finaly confronted my partner over the tough love and wether if he was going to stay with me and fight watever is going on with me head on or would i face this journey alone, and here it came like a tidal wave, we were arguing for seems 2 hours... arguing about how im to late on getting help and im crazy and hes had enough, ect

i finaly broke down, started to cry, then got angry then was fine, now that i think about it, remember how on my last

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update so i went to the drs finaly getting blood work done to check my levels n everything, dr is very concern of course and ill be seeing a privet therapist in the morning 2marow..... oh and im now on celexa and ummm trazodone.

today was full of ups and downs, whether i know my bf is going to stick with me n help me or no, in the end after calling the crisis line, my new therapist, n some friends i came to the conulsion, that ok i understand my drama on sunday was uncalled for, and

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Dear Blog so its been 14 very crazy weeks, ive been through the highs and lows with this surgery and now there is no turning back, yes work, school, friends, relationships, and everyday life drama goes on in life, but with this surgery it really turns your world upside down,

a couple of days ago, i started thinking about suicide again, last time i thought of that was back when i wasnt doing so well in high school dealing with being a obese teen, with pretty cute skinny girls, wasnt

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