On St Patrick's day, i will have been sleeved for a year.
ive done alot this year and realized something that should have been evident a long time ago. I need to tell a story here.
I bought a car last summer with the intention of camping and road trips with friends and other loves in my life. 7 passanger loaded with everything, ac that would make your drinks cold, everything i ever wanted. It had style. I enjoyed the ride. I traded it in today.
I cried like a loony in the

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its been almost a year since my surgery. the ticker at the bottom of the page stated 300. that means that i have lost 118 lbs in 10 months. and i am oddly underwelmed by this. ive been stalled for a bit. i dont see the change in the mirror most days. on the days i do i am supremely happy with how its worked, and my progress on this road. it was 4 days after my 35th birthday. and my daughter took her first steps by herself on st Patrick s day years ago. i could make that jump if you like. that we

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time flies when you are having fun.
its so hard to believe that i have been post op for 6 months.
let me lay it out on the table for people.

at Christmas this past year i sat in a plastic lawn chair and it collapsed beneath me in front of the entire family. i was horrified. i had no idea how much i weighed.i had quietly been going up in sizes the last three years or so. i was unhappy and truly felt unhealthy. i found a scale and was horrified again. 362 lbs.that was

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crap, this was just supposed to be about being stalled.... fair warning, this is my summer adventures in overworking and life problems as i see it. there. you were warned.
i dont know if its just because i have more stress this month, and i have been working an 80+ hour work week, or if i am not supposed to live on beef jerky and protein shakes(i get my vitamins and water, relax) but i am stalled.
waay stalled.
good news is that i am going to be laid off one job and the other

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i don't think i have been paying proper attention to this blog. but i have reason for that. life has spiraled away. and i look back and realize its been almost 3 months since i had my sleeve done. i am down 80 lbs, and i am down 10 pant sizes.
i am 7 lbs lighter than when i graduated high school 18 years ago.
i look back on all of the struggling, and all of the disappointment, i look at all of the pain that i let saturate my psyche, all of the potshots i made at myself, or allowed

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