How is anyone supposed to work under these conditions?!?!
by
, 09-17-2012 at 12:56 PM (1384 Views)
With surgery now less than a week away, I'm finding it pretty hard to concentrate on anything else. Makes for not such an efficient use of my time at work, and I'm worried about not getting everything done before I go. I notice that I'm feeling guilty about being away at a time that I know doesn't particularly suit some people. Today I had a new member of staff start, and I feel bad about how little time she'll have to meet with me before I go away.
I obviously go on leave at other times from work, but I think because this was at shorter notice, and maybe because it's something completely for me, I feel way more guilty than usual.
It's something I've known about myself for a while, this tendency to not pay attention to what I need, or find it difficult to prioritise myself when I realise what I need. I'm sure lots of others here feel it too. However, if I'm paying £10K for this surgery, and getting it right post-op might be the difference between good health and bad health, there's really no choice but to put myself first.
My husband and I spoke about this issue because the stress at work is one of the things that contributes to my tendency to make bad choices about food and exercise. I'm not investing all this money, and irreversibly changing my physiology for sh!ts and giggles, so I better focus on this work/life balance after the surgery. I had already started to make some positive changes in that area, but I'm going to have to keep going.
My dad had a stroke at age 56 - luckily it was a mild one, but that was just pure luck. One of my reasons for having the surgery is not to end up the same, and managing my work stress is probably the major thing I need to do to avoid that, and make this sleeve work for me.
Any comments from other sleevers about how they managed work-life balance after the sleeve, and whether their perspective on work changed as a result of having the surgery are very welcome...