Don't Like Being a Bummer
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, 06-13-2012 at 09:49 AM (1380 Views)
Oy vey. I don't like feeling this way and I certainly do NOT want to dampen anyone's else's day, but man, I am feeling blue. I had my surgery on May 21st and at my 2-week post-op check-in I had lost 19 lbs. Fantastic, right? Well, since then, when I've weighed myself, I don't really see much of a difference. I have a tendency in the past to sabotage myself, or totally believe that I'm going to fail, because I had at every other attempt to lose weight. I'm probably not eating enough, drinking enough water, and then last night I ate what probably amounted to 1/2 cup of chocolate M&Ms. UGH. Guess what is not allowed in my freaking house anymore? My 4 year old is still learning how to pee in the potty and I was using them as treats. Well, they're gone. He'll get Twizzlers from now on, because those are disgusting (to me at least). lol I just got on the scale and it's saying I've lost another 2 pounds. IN A WEEK!?! I just wasn't expecting that, even if I did M&Ms one night. I'm actually a little pissed. This is when I would normally say FU diet and go back to me regular ways. I laugh to myself though, because that sure ain't happening. HURRAY for a stomach the size of 2 tablespoons, or whatever it is now. I just was under the impression that it was going to fall off. The first 19 did, but I guess that's it. At this rate, it's going to take me months and months to lose my weight. And listen, normally I'm VERY upbeat and positive. I think I'm just having a "day." Been so stinking tired lately. Maybe because of the diet? I don't know. I go in for my 4 week post-op next Thursday, the 21st, one month exact. I'm scared I'm going to go in there and be a big fat failure. No pun intended. Thanks for letting me vent. Now, I'm going to go get me some water and sulk.![]()