The Roller Coaster Ride
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, 10-21-2018 at 08:33 PM (10715 Views)
My mind is constantly thinking about my surgery. I wake up and think about how I’ll eventually eat breakfast and how I will dress when I’m healthier and thinner. I sit in my car and wonder how my legs will look sitting in the driver seat. I drink my coffee and think what it will be like when I can’t drink caffeine. I worry if I’ll have complications and not be able to work. When I’m not busy at work I’ll think about what I need to do to be ready for my surgery and what I need to get and check FB pages and forums to see what people are writing. I read the scary things and the inspirational stories and I pray that I don’t have a lot of issues. No matter what I always come back to how I am so tired of not living truly happy with my health. I’m tired of feeling insecure and hiding behind smiles. I plan on doing everything told and follow all instructions. I’m going to Mexico and I’m afraid that I won’t have a local doctor to follow up with. This surgery would not be happening if it was not for Mexico. I have heard the bad stories but, there are bad stories in the USA too. My husband is amazing. While he is scared and not totally on board because he wishes I would exercise and diet. I’ve been doing that for my whole life and he understands and is paying for my surgery. We talk about the process and what we hope is a success and it makes it easier. I’m having surgery on Dec 4, what the heck was I thinking??? The stress is real. I start my preop diet Nov 7! I definitely was not thinking hahaha. Right now I’m focusing on eliminating things that I should not have after surgery sugary things, Diet Coke, coffee and eating smaller quantities. I look through magazines at clothes I’ve never been able to wear and hope for success in the future. So..if you see me around say Hi..