CURIOUSER and CURIOUSER
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, 06-29-2018 at 06:36 AM (5028 Views)
Today has been one of those epiphany days (as opposed to theophany days, which I always enjoy more). In talking with a dear friend I was rather curious as to how she perceives me. Not offended mind you, just always surprised. She describes me as "devout and funny". Not. bad things, just unexpected.
How differently one perceives oneself as to how one is seen in the world, even among those who are close to us. My HS friends describe me as "sweet, kind and thoughtful". My college friends describe me as funny, intense, talented, adventurous. I would not describe myself in those terms ever. My cousins (I have 125 first cousins) describe me as "Miss Goody Two Shoes", which means I was apparently more clever then them as I did not get caught! My former bosses (with whom I am still in touch and friends) describe me as incredibly capable and compassionate, highly intelligent. My ex husband describes me as "mean and pretty". My current (last and lovely) husband describes as a good-hearted, lovely soul. My BFFs (Donna and Sharyl) deeply value our ability to keep the Las Vegas rule (what happens between us stays between us) for all these many years. Private matters, the things which we may be ashamed of doing or feeling or thinking. And the fun we have.
My epiphany is, not one said I was thin (which I was for many years) or fat (which I was for many years). No one mentioned I had lush thick black long hair, nor that I have sparse gray/white curls now. No one mentioned any of the things that I worried about.
The gift for me in this weight loss (beyond the joy of restored health) is that I feel more free to see myself -- my real person, rather than my appearance.
Hmm 66 years! One can still teach an old dog new tricks
You are all such gifts in my world.