My Reality Is...Part 1
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, 06-07-2018 at 09:58 AM (2444 Views)
Over the course of the past two weeks I have been trying hard to see movement on the scale, only to find that it can be as stubborn as I am and choose not to comply with my wishes. I have increased up my exercise routine (which I understand can build muscle and promote weight gain), I have weaned back even further on my carb intake and focused more on proteins, I have taken a long, hard look at my caloric intake...and yet, nothing.
That was until three days ago.
On June 5, I finally recognized movement with a loss of 2 pounds. Excited doesn't begin to describe this small miracle of success. But consider the struggles I have faced in recent months, I was beginning to think that all hope was lost.
I couldn't have been more wrong.
On June 6, I saw what I consider to be a great success in that I lost 3 more pounds. Fist pumps (not the Jersey Shore television show kind) and hand claps aside, I was elated. I know it was only a total of five pounds in two days, but I was beside myself and felt that all of my hard was FINALLY paying off.
But it didn't stop there.
This morning I stepped on the scale to find that I have lost another two pounds! That is a total of seven pounds in three days! Unreal! Absolutely unreal. At this point I have stopped questioning my weight loss methodology and decided to simply go with it. After all, I am doing something right. To pinpoint it would be difficult but I can only assume that is the accumulation of everything I have been doing thus far. That, and maybe, just maybe, I was in a long and drawn out stall. At this point, I don't know. But to be honest, I don't really care. What I care about now is keeping the momentum going.
After all, isn't this what we all strive for: weight loss success? Failure is not an option (although setbacks do indeed exist.) But by and large, we want to see scale movement, not stagnation. And that's really how I was beginning to feel: stagnant.
After everything I have been through dating back to my original WLS in 2002, I had nearly given up, and for what? Because things weren't working the way I expected them to?
As I write this, I recognize how idiotic my thought process has been. In getting real with myself for a moment, I know I would have hated myself had I truly given up on the VSG. As I previously stated, I have been through so much. So much. I don't think I could have ever forgiven myself for making such a life altering decision.
But I didn't give up on myself or WLS. I stood by idle and waited (sometimes impatiently) as others trudged forward and worked it out. it was in watching this happen that I made a conscious decision to make one last ditch effort: to shake things up, if you will. And look at me now, 7 pounds lighter, a HUGE smile across my face, and a renewed sense of spirit, hope, determination, and dedication.
I WILL DO THIS. Not because I feel I have an obligation to but because this is who I have I have become and this is my life now.