Fears and thoughts
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, 06-03-2018 at 08:50 PM (1872 Views)
My initial appointment with the surgeon is next week. I'm down about 14 pounds so far, and about 30 from my heaviest. It feels nice, even just making slow progress.
Today, my husband and I went to local caverns and did a guided tour. While waiting for the tour to start, I was reading the facts about it and just getting myself so scared. I kept thinking about what if I couldn't do it? Then I felt awful because, at my age, I should be signing up for the advanced tours. The tour guide warned us about a narrow spot and I started to panic inside that I would be too big to make it through. I was totally fine, but the thought was there.
I am so nervous about surgery, but I just want to be able to live life. I want to go hiking and biking and be able to run and play. I already do most of that, I try not to let anything hold me back, but I want to be able to do these things without it feeling like such a massive battle.
In the end, the tour was great. No issues. I also have fibromyalgia, and on some days it's awful. Since I've been losing weight, it has felt much better, but that could also be related to the warmer weather.
As the appointment with the surgeon gets closer, I get more nervous. I'm excited though.
How do you find weight appropriate exercise? I am very afraid of hurting my joints.