4th post op day- mourning the loss of food
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, 06-02-2018 at 07:35 AM (1545 Views)
Physically today I look fatter than when I started, due to a nightmare journey travelling home yesterday making me a bit swollen.That I can handle , what I struggled to cope with was the carvings I was having in the 6 hrs spent in the airport with nothing but the amazing smells of pizza, chicken and luscious food.
I have to admit , although my stomach is "fixed" I am worried my brain is not. I have just had my 100ml of soup and I feel full , yet as I watch my children eat lunch ,I could rugby tackle them for their crisps and feel willing to wrestle them for a bite of their ham sandwich.
I know my stomach couldn't handle any such food, I know I am not hungry, and I know that eating anything "naughty" will just be self sabotage therefore a complete waste of money. But why oh why doesn't my brain know this yet?
I don't have any triggers that make me eat, I just like food.I want to stop liking food!
I am really really hoping that I can change my mindset, and this phase is a normal part of this epic journey to skinniness.