Frustration Doesn't Begin to Describe My Emotions
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, 05-21-2018 at 12:36 PM (1835 Views)
I have come to the realization that I have been basing my food consumption on the time frame that has elapsed since my VSG procedure rather than looking within and going with what feels right to me and my body.
This has been a HUGE source of frustration for me because I have been diligently working hard to move further down the weight scale, and yet despite my best efforts I am not moving below 240 pounds.
I know, I know...slow and steady wins the race. I understand the concept behind this statement, however feeling as though I have reached a plateau is, in and of itself, a rather grandiose form of frustration for me. I find myself questioning everything I am doing. So much so that I am beginning to point a crooked finger at myself all with the notion that I am in some way unknowingly sabotaging my own success thus far.
Writing that makes me realize that I guess I really don't believe the substance of that sentence, yet I am finding difficulty understanding why there is no movement on the scale. I know I am still losing my overall size because some of my older clothing items literally hand from my shoulders and my waist, but it is the obese part of me (refer to my previous blog posting "8 Months Post-op" for a deeper understanding) that feels as though I am doing something terribly wrong. I just don't for the life of me know what it can be.
If have nothing else right now, I have a sense of strength and determination to see this through. After all, I don't really have an option because a new life of obesity is NOT in my future.