Soul Searching for a RE-start......
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, 02-23-2018 at 08:24 AM (3372 Views)
Let me first say that I exceeded my surgery goals 4 years ago. I was the picture perfect model (on how it should be done) and was asked to go speak at the meetings. After about 2 yrs I went to my doctor and told him that I all the sudden can eat a plate of food before feeling full. What is going on? Why isn't my "tool" working anymore? At that point, I had regained 30 lbs. And yes, I was still following a high protein low/no carb diet and exercising 2-3 days a week (just not as hard/long). He said, "I should be able to eat a plate of food." Wasn't what I wanted to hear. I also confessed to drinking carbonated beverages once in a while (1-2 per week). He did an upper GI so he could see how bad my sleeve had stretched and he said some but nothing really to be concerned with. Now understand I told him make it as tight as you can. I was one that commented, there is "NO WAY" to over eat. I don't understand how you could regain. WELL.....I have and from my lowest weight am not back at 203. "Onederland" where did you go?????
I found myself not exercising (that became my addiction vs food) and I simply became lazy and out of touch with me.
I am PISSED that I allowed myself to go back this far. I question the surgeries long term help. I have read from many people this happens around 2 years out. I was so careful, but not careful enough. Old habits die hard, or not at all. It creeps up on you and at the 30 lbs gain I went back to my surgeon for help and asking why. It continues. But.....NO MORE. Monday, I am starting a two week reset. I spoke to my general Dr and he agreed that I should try it. I asked if there was any way to re-shrink my sleeve. He said, this is the way, but it will never go back to what it once was.
I am here to document my journey and struggles that life is real and my weight will always be my battle. Has anyone else here had this same issue and can lend tips to losing this unwanted weight again? There is no one that can be harder on me, than me. I spend 9500.00 in a breast lift and skin removal from my arms. All to screw it up with MY bad behaviors. Time to become selfish and find my happy weight again.