Uh oh
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, 11-13-2017 at 03:38 AM (1639 Views)
Tonight I ate some beef stew that I'd made for me and my husband. I mushed mine up as best I could, it's basically carrots, onions, stewing steak, beef broth and potatoes. Now I feel bad because I've eaten white potatoes and I'm worried I'm just going to end up inhaling 5lbs of carbs, stretch my stomach and mess everything up.
Later on I was making breakfast sandwiches for my husband to take to work, I tend to make a big batch of something for his breakfasts and lunches at work. I like cooking and it saves money. I made him a load of sausage, egg and cheese english muffins. Had a bite of a sausage. Tasted gooooood. I'm fed up with tuna salad and scrambled eggs. Now I feel guilty. White potatoes and sausage in one night. I'm getting paranoid that I'm on some sort of slippery slope back into obesity. Not that I'm even out of obesity yet. I could probably do with a plan to tell me what to eat everyday and help stop me from getting bored and eating the same old thing all the time. There's only so much cottage cheese a girl can take.
This is making me think I didn't fully realize just how much fat and carbs I was eating before surgery. I feel a bit lost. I'm not very sure what I should be eating besides eggs, cottage cheese and tuna and I'm starting to hate those foods.
Next I need to tackle head hunger, I know I do get genuinely hungry, but I also know there are times when I want to eat but I'm not hungry. That's the kicker that I need to deal with, what do you do when you want to eat but aren't hungry? Mind you I feel like if any of us could've figured that one out we wouldn't have needed surgery in the first place.
I need to sleep, I haven't had a decent nights sleep in ages. I rarely sleep longer than 5 or 6 hours. I've give anything to be able to sleep for 8 hours a night, every night. If only there was a surgery to correct insomnia. It runs in my family, I remember watching my Grandma going through sleeping pills like they were M&Ms, my cousin, aunt, brother, they all struggle with it. My dad has been tired from not sleeping well for the past 2 decades. It's such a curse.
Anyway, lets hope tonight I'll be able to get to sleep and won't feel so crap in the morning.