One Day and Counting...
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, 07-19-2017 at 11:07 AM (1738 Views)
Well today we fly to San Diego and tomorrow is the big day! I won't lie...I'm so nervous and have been second guessing my decision, even though I have been so excited. Since mid-May, I've lost 30 pounds and got below the 50% BMI. I know I can do this without the surgery, but the last week or so I have not really lost any more weight, which is frustrating and I get concerned it is due to the low calories, which will not really change after the sleeve; however, I have to remember my reasoning for doing this...to provide me the tool to prevent binging. I still have a lot of mental work to do, but I am on my way.
Originally I had two friends joining me for the procedure, but they are also re-thinking the decision, which probably doesn't help my reluctance. I'm hoping once we get there, they don't back out. I was really looking forward to going through this with my best friends, as I don't have a true "weight loss" support system without them. I was adopted and my family definitely has different genes than me. They all can pretty much eat what they want and are sticks! Lots of fun! I want to feel like I fit in with them and so I know I need to continue this journey!
I'm sure I'm not the only one to feel this way, but thought I'd put it out there.
Wish me luck!
Tara