T minus 41 Days (AND COUNTING....)
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, 05-23-2017 at 12:43 PM (4138 Views)
Well.... as my surgery date approaches, I have been forced to take a hard look in the mirror. The latest "Ah-ha" moment for me today was putting on a skirt for work and literally stuffing myself into it. Then I put on my button up shirt and there were gaps. I feel uncomfortable and blahhhhhhhhh. My bubbly personality still tries to escape this obese body I have imprisoned myself in. It is just terrible and sad that I have let myself get to this point. I am so sick of being the "fat" girl I did not used to always be heavy and over the years, and eating my emotions... here I am.
I am so glad that I have made the decision to have the sleeve surgery. I wish I would have it sooner than July but we have flights, hotels, surgery paid for so here we go! I get so much encouragement from reading the journeys that other Sleevers are going through. I have started a notebook so that I can print out the useful information that I am gaining from all of you. It has literally been a lifeline for me and I thank you all so much. I am going to try to find a therapist to work out my emotional eating issues. I have tried to find someone in the past with no success. I have ordered some of the books that others here have suggested and will do all that I can do to get this under control. I want to live my best life. Sitting here today in this tight, uncomfortable skirt/shirt, just reconfirms my commitment to my decision.
T minus 41 days over and OUT