2 Days To Go - Being Tested By Stress
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, 03-20-2017 at 06:50 AM (2313 Views)
I've got 2 days to go until surgery and what a stress ride it has been. Two weeks ago I broke a tooth and had it pulled (money out, lots of pain). Then, 5 days ago, the spouse needed new tires and they are expensive (money out, lots of pain). THEN, yesterday, had plumping problems and basement floored (money out, lots and lots of pain).
I wonder if a greater Being is trying to toughen me up for the operation. Actually, it's having the opposite effect. I'm extremely stressed, all the things I wanted to get done aren't getting done, I'm not sleeping well, and I'm just numb. I want to cry but tears never come easily, I was taught to suck it up, suck and eat my feelings. Well, now is not the time to break down.
I lost a tad of weight on my pre-op diet but not much, about 7 -8 pounds. I'm too constipated and I'm carrying it all around, so the weight loss is skewed! It's all due to stress. My stomach is extended and swollen, 'cos I ain't pooping much. I'm meeting my water goal and taking stole softeners but it's just not working. Too stressed.
I took off all this week. Gotta run to stores and do errands. Plumber is coming back at 10:00. I have a massage at 2:00 - I'm not missing it for anything. Then, I need to clean up the basement after the plumber leaves, etc.
I need good luck, I need my spouse to stop stressing me out, I need quiet and serenity, I need support. I've got none of any of this right now. I hope it all turns around in the next 24 hours.