14 months: is it over?
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, 03-20-2017 at 02:10 AM (3205 Views)
I know my surgeon said I could lose easily until 18 months out but for the past weeks I see for the first time a "floating" pound coming on and off and I think that my weight is trying to stabilize. Before my weight would never go up (unless I was taking a medication) so I notice something new here.
My hubby keeps on telling me I look great and don't need to lose more weight, I really want a buffer or at least be out of the wood (on the BMI side). Not the case right now, so no, I'm not going to say I reached my target weight. I didn't. Yet. I know my surgeon is happy, I'm not far from his prediction. Well, I'm not going to settle now.
It's funny how I lost more than 1/3 of my weight in total (since my heaviest in 2012) but somewhere I'm still dealing with those same weight issues. So close from goal but it seems so far...
I came to the conclusion a long time ago that I will be obese all my life. I mean even if I don't look that big anymore, I will always carry the burden of obesity with me. Somewhere it's a blessing to think that way because I will never eat care free but at the same time there's a feeling of being "different" I can't shake off.
I'm happy and grateful for many improvements that came with the sleeve and losing 100 pounds, I know the surgery saved my life but I can't say that I'm currently happy about my weight. I really want to reach a weight that will really improve my health on the long term and also important lower the price of my insurance, it's not that far but I guess it might take more than one year to reach at that speed.
I might need to look into more strategies as going back to tracking for a few months (I hate that! it does drive me crazy!). Not too happy about that but it might be necessary if I see no improvement.
Plus I think changing country will help a lot, I don't eat enough calcium here. Food choices are limited and sometimes I just don't eat enough.
So this month is more a "wait and see" month, also I couldn't walk as before and that might be mainly why I'm stuck. My tendonitis are getting better, I walked more yesterday and was almost pain-free last night. Mega huge improvement.
I really can't wait to be in Australia next month, my last time there was ...Ten years ago!! gee time is flying. I wish I could go jumping with the kangaroos but with my knees it's not going to happen!