Almost 10-Months Post Op
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, 03-16-2017 at 01:22 AM (2364 Views)
It's incredible to think it's been 10 months, it feels like just started this journey yesterday.
Life just continues to move forward and (maybe hormones speaking, yes in the middle of Moon) I feel like I'm trying to catch up or rather keep up with it.
I have been in California visiting my kids, it has been bliss. I haven't gone to see my mother, which I am dreading. She all of the sudden has an array of ailments. She described what were gallbladder attack symptoms and I told her a many a time to go to doctor or urgent care. I think she expected me to drop everything and go by her side. I'm still over 120 miles away so it is difficult since I have been taking care of my grandson and also healing from a root canal that's barely starting to feel normal. Did she call me once to ask how I was doing? Of course not.
My partner came for a few days, but had to return home. We found a nice home for me to settle here, and I will be sharing with my son and his family. Commute to USC is going to be interesting, but we had to do some compromising as nice areas near LA are too expensive and it will be to far for my son and daughter in law to commute to their respective jobs. Believe it or not I am really happy about this living arrangement. Lot's of opportunity for good things to happen. And I get to see my grandson grow up and be part of his life.
I will be heading back to Austin in May to make my one year post op visit with the Bariatric surgeon there, I suppose I could contact the surgeon here for that but I am all set up there. I also need to pack and ship a lot of stuff before we do our Europe trip and I start school again in August.
Overall I am happy my sleeve is working for me. I feel sooo stressed out about my mom. I feel stressed out about going back to the long distance relationship again, but also some relief too. I am stressed about uncertainties. I could be eating my stress, but I'm not. Food choices have been rather simple and nutritious for the most part. I did have three mochi ice cream balls today and a few pieces of chocolate. Those were compulsive choices and I hope I do better tomorrow. I haven't logged my food for the last week or so. And I haven't done any formal exercises for a few weeks other than a lot of walking.
I have come far, but not far enough. I need to stay present and focus on my health. I keep looking at pictures of where I was a year and two ago, and where I am now. I feel encouraged that all the sacrifices are paying off, and I need to keep moving forward.