Tired of being fat
by
, 02-12-2017 at 02:40 PM (3421 Views)
Hello everyone,
I am 5 days pre-op and 9 days on my diet. I've lost 7 pounds so far and I'm hoping to make it at least 10 before surgery. I can't ever remember not being fat. I've seen pictures of myself as a young child, maybe 6, and I was thin, but I don't remember it. I was teased and bullied as a child growing up and now as an adult I suffer from low self-esteem and poor self image. The earliest memories I have about my weight are roughly from the age of 10, I was the only 4th grader to wear a bra and have hips, so naturally I was made fun of for being different. I'm told by friends and family that I carry my weight well and I don't look fat, but I know how I feel everyday. I am a size 18-20 jeans and xl-2x shirt. My thighs have rubbed together all my life and its hard to find jeans to fit my legs and butt while also not being too big in the waist. I consider myself to be pear shaped, I have a visible waist line with wide hips, a bubble butt, and the classic thunder thighs. I know its not good to judge yourself by what people label things, but I wanted to give an idea of the image I've developed of myself over the years. I am getting the gastric sleeve surgery so that I can finally be healthy, wear nice clothes, be and feel sexy, gain the confidence that I've been lacking since forever, and prove to myself that I can make this change happen. I've tried diets and exercise with little to no results more times than I care to admit, but I'm hoping that this time when I add in the sleeve it will help me to finally reach my goals. I also have severe arthritis that depends on this surgery helping me to lose weight because I have no cartilage left in my ankle joint. I was hesitant to join any groups because I have social anxiety, but I figured that this could only help if I'm surrounded by people who know what I have gone through and am going through. I'm excited to start this journey and after reading some of your accomplishments you have given me the strength and courage I needed to hopefully become one of the next success stories on here. <3