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, 08-18-2015 at 06:02 AM (2156 Views)
Hi I am new at posting but like others I have been watching and reading for some time now. I am 33 and a mother of 2. I never really had a problem with my weight throughout my childhood and im not one who struggled with my weight all my life witch is why going to MEXICO to be sleeved really threw my family for a loop.
Even though I haven't been heavy all my life I am now, I can barely run for 5 mins without feeling like my chest is going to give out, im 5ft 4in and im at 235lbs the heaviest I have ever been. I have no social life at the moment as I spend most of my time hiding from everyday life. My immediate family know of my upcoming sleeve but I have not told my co-workers and friends. My family is completely against me having the sleeve done and we don't talk about it much. 2 years ago I lost my daughter, she was 13 and from then on out the weight just stacked on. I ate to not be sad, I ate to get through the pain, I ate to get through the night soon food was more than comfort is was my go to for everything stress, depression, sadness, even laziness why eat healthy when you can stop by McDonalds and everyone's happy its sounds horrible but it has been my reality for the last 2-3 years
After realizing the diets was not going to work and my BMI was not high enough to have it covered by my insurance I did some homework and thought about it for some time and after several calls, emails and numerous other research efforts I decided that this is something I not only wanted but needed
Im having my surgery with Dr Almanza on 8/28/2015 I cant believe that's next week...OMG im freaking out, what if I mess up, what if I gain all lost weight back??? im so nervous but excited at the same time. My mom who is also completely against it is very nervous witch is making me really nervous. My son is 14 and my daughter is 11, they know about the surgery and as the date gets closer they ask more and more questions witch makes me even more nervous. I have a 5 day pre-op diet that starts on sunday that im simply terrified of but I have come this far so ill definitely give it my all
Reading the blogs has really given me an idea of what im looking forward to so I would like to think that im ready by the fear of the what ifs is what frightens me what if I do horrible with the pre-op what happens then, what if my body is not cooperative and I loose no weight, what if my urge to eat gets to me and I mess up???? I have so many reasons to get healthy and get my weight under control that I would like to think that I wouldn't mess this up for the world but at the same time food has been my world and eating is not a choice anymore its almost as if I must indulge to satisfy the inner happiness. just typing that shows me I really need a change.
So what I have done so far to prepare for my new journey???? well I have began walking daily, I have cut the soda and juices for about 2 weeks now, I have stop eating after 7pm witch is hard because I work 3rd shift 4-12:30am so snacking is just the norm but so far so good I drink lots of water but I love water so no biggie, still trying out protein shakes id rather find that one that I enjoy but it seems that may be a tad bit hard since from what I have read after the sleeve your taste buds completely change
Well that's about it guys. thanks for all the post and information you guys have no idea how helpful its been I LOVE THIS SITE and im hopeng to take each one of you along with me on my journey to a better me oh and now that I have blogged I may become a little worrisome please excuse me if I do im just really getting to the wire and want to know all there is to know so that I can succeed and flourish with my new tool if you have any advice please please please give it to me I could really use some help.
thanks guys