Pushing thru for Change--BUT
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, 04-17-2015 at 09:29 AM (2334 Views)
Good Day, I'm now 11 days post op and can I say... I hate this! This has been the hardest thing to do, starting with the liquid diet pre-op up toll now. It has been very challenging around my family not being ably to eat but watching them eat constantly. Almost as if they have been eating more just because I can't eat!
Yesterday, I decided enough! I'm going to eat something, so I started looking thru notes to see what I could eat. I got some mash potatoes, blank beans, a roasted chicken leg and some guacamole. I tool a scoop of each trying to to have more than 2 teaspoon of each. Well, I'm sure most of you already know the outcome. Yes I threw it all up, not even finishing my original plate. I was so upset and disquieted with myself. When I finally calmed down, I drank water and went to bed with my tummy growling as usual. All I could think of is what the HECK have I gotten myself into. I HATE THIS!
Now don't think I'm a crybaby or give up too soon. Everyday since being home, I have been walking more and more. As of today I'm up to 2-3 miles and feeling absolutely wonderful! I look forward to getting up everyday and walking and talking to God. I'm headed back to work after next week and I'm afraid. If I'm still not eating how in the world can I survive on mentally on liquids? I'm scared and ultimately I'm hating the decision I've made. I'm not sure if I'm really losing weight cause my close seem to still be tight, how can that be! This is just a lot and very overwhelming. So needless to say, I'm not a happy camper and need any advice anyone is really to give.
Wishing you all a happy weekend