7 month update
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, 10-20-2014 at 08:36 AM (2254 Views)
Hello everyone! It's been awhile since I did any sort of update, so here it goes! I am a little over 7 months out. I have lost 49 pounds. I weighed 159 pounds this morning. I am wearing a size 13/14 pants and a Medium shirt. I also just bought a size 10 dress which fits me!! Womens clothes are strange, haha! But I will take it!!
49 pounds isnt A LOT, considering many of you have lost double that... BUT, it is 49 pounds OFF OF ME and I am happy
Including the little bit of weight I lost when I had the Lap Band, I have lost 84 pounds, from my highest weight, which was 243!! I was in a size 20, BARELY... I was Type 2 diabetic, had high blood pressue, PCOS, and pretty severe depression, which led to me binge eating pretty badly towards the end.
For all of you that are new, or considering this... This will NOT stop your cravings for the bad food. It will not stop you from eating badly. It will only stop your from overeating in one sitting... Your mind has GOT to be right for this to work. Honestly, I describe this surgery as a complete Mind F@ck. Excuse my language We all have bad habits, or we would not be having most of our STOMACH REMOVED to lose weight.
With that being said, I want to be completely honest... In the past couple of months, I discovered that I can eat, wait about an hour, and eat more. And thats what I was doing. BAD ME!! I have never managed to make myself sick, but I have been pretty uncomfortable. I had been in the 160s since July. It took me almost 4 months to lose 10 pounds. I think it is crucial that we track our food. (This is what has helped me) I felt like I wasnt eating THAT much, but really I was. I started tracking my food on MFP on Friday, and went from 162 to 159 over the weekend. I think tracking food is a pain in the ass, but it really is working for me, and If I can help just one other person, I will be happy. So if you are stalled, TRY IT!! It cannot hurt. You may not realize all the little bites you are taking are truly adding up.
I am so glad I had the sleeve. Even with the complications I had. (nicked spleen, collapsed lung, and a leak) I would do it again. I no longer have to shop at Lane Bryant, or grab an XXL at Target. I can go to ANY store and fit into their clothes. I just bought Victoria's Secret bras and panties over the weekend!!! I also run now. I AM A RUNNER. I've run a couple of 5k's and I see a half marathon (13.1) in my future. I run 3-4 times a week and 2 miles is now an easy run for me. THAT IS INSANE. When I started, the 60 second jog on my "Couch to 5k" app seemed impossible. Sometimes I am surprised when I walk past my reflection. I would take my extra skin over an extra 84 pounds of fat ALL DAY LONG. There are days I miss food so much. The past couple weeks in particular. I am not sure why, but there was a day that I cried driving home because I wanted to stop at Wendy's for a double stack and spicy chicken sandwich on my way home. I am not lying when I tell you a BOO-HOO cried all the way home. I knew I couldnt eat it, but I wanted it so bad. I miss eating like that. But I know it is wrong, and pointless to spend the money now. haha. This is getting easier. I can talk myself out of things now, whereas before I could validate my poor decisions somehow. "I will start tomorrow" were my famous words EVERY SINGLE DAY.
Okay, sorry for the long post. I just wanted to do this so I could read it in the future, remember my struggles, and hopefully offer some answers or clarity for those still with questions about this surgery. I am an open book if anyone wants to ask anything. Good luck to us all!!!