48 hours before surgery! And flying toward the future.
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, 10-04-2014 at 10:43 AM (1407 Views)
Okay so here goes - my first blog post.
I've ben pretty calm up until now and I can feel the nerves setting in this morning. I have a plan like most other Monday sleevers I've connected with - to clean the house and get my stage 3 foods from the store. Tomorrow I will be hanging out with my sister all day and will be busy. I don't expect to sleep much Sunday night.
The hospital called yesterday and told me to come in earlier - at 8 rather than 9:30 because the person before me didn't get insurance approval in time. Fine with me. The less time I have to wait the better.
I started my 2-day liquid diet today - protein shakes, jello and soup broths. And I stopped taking my vitamins.
I've already taken my 'before' pictures so I guess most everything is in place.
Now's the time for looking forward to envision my healthier self in the future:
This summer I'm zip lining with the family. I imagine me being able to climb all the way up to the top of the zip line tower - maybe even beating my kids up the stairs. No problem fitting into the harness because I'll be a normal weight and I won't have any embarrassment about my size. When I step off that platform I let go and fly fast and free with my arms wide open to feel it all. This is the image I will call on when I am waiting to go into surgery on monday. It calms me instantly and makes me smile.
I'll be much more comfortable in a bathing suit on the beach not to mention I'll look a helluva lot better. And I'm getting a bike for Christmas. A retro pink or turquoise blue bike with a basket in the front to carry some little things. I'll be able to ride without pain or embarrassment and the wind in my hair and strength in my legs will feel powerfully good.
I'll be buying clothes in 'regular' stores and wearing all of the cute styles coming out this spring. I'll need a whole new work wardrobe and I've joked with my work friends that I'll know I've made it when I get called down to HR for wearing skirts that are too tight and too short
I can't wait.
Yes. It's time.