Now we're sleevers together ;)
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, 09-25-2014 at 03:46 PM (1359 Views)
I'm sitting in the hospital right now waiting for my husband to get out of recovery. Nine months ago I had my VSG, and today my husband had his. All went well and I am grateful for that and so happy for him! Now to deal with the other emotions I have tried to keep at bay. I have lost 80 lbs so far, 70 since surgery. I'm overall happy with my results, although I wish I were further along. I'm just over half way to my goal. My losses have never come steadily... but in spurts. Even the spurts have been so irregular, feeding into the ever present doubt that I will ultimately stay obese and never "make it." I know my husband will reach his goal in a few months, and while I am happy knowing that he'll reach his goal, it makes me kind of sad that I am not even close to mine. It's taken me almost 4 months to take off these last 20ish lbs. However, I am ready to shake things up as my husband starts his journey. I am thinking of trying the 5 day pouch test during my husband's first week of liquids. I hope I can stand it. Yesterday I tried to get my calories down under 1000-just barely made it. I felt starved all evening! Its hard to go back down once you've gone up. Well, I guess the purpose of this post is to get off my chest the feelings of, what if he just blows right past me to his goal and I'm left 60-70 lbs away from mine, struggling? And then, what a jerk am I to even fathom these thoughts? Online therapy. Be gentle.