Progress
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, 06-27-2014 at 08:32 AM (2071 Views)
Happy Friday! Yesterday I was 11 weeks out from surgery and finally hit 50 lbs lost (30 since surgery and 20 on the pre-op diet). I am averaging about 10 lbs per month post surgery, which I think is awesome. I did stall ( like everyone else) right after week 2 post op, so for those of you who are going through that now- hang in there... it's not fun, but it will pass. But, this morning I was thinking to myself- "do you really SEE 50 lbs gone"? And my answer was "no".. I see a thinner face and I obviously know my clothes are smaller. But, mentally- "no", I don't "see" it. I think a part of me is afraid to look and see some sort of success b/c I have failed at this so many times before. I also don't want to get "comfortable" with what I see b/c then I'm afraid I will go back to old habits ( again- a pattern I used to do when I was dieting). But, I'm at a point now where people are starting to comment and it feels a little weird! A guy I work with ( who is never in the office) did a double take yesterday and stopped to tell me how great I looked. It feels good to know that it's noticeable, but at the same time, I'm not really comfortable yet with people paying attention to my weight loss. Nobody at work ( except for my boss) knows I had surgery, so I just tell them I've changed my lifestyle with diet and exercise, but it's always an uncomfortable question. I always think it's funny when people say "What is your secret"?! Ummm... well, I'm not stuffing my face anymore... that's the big "secret"! LOL! But this morning I decided to do a side by side of my "before" and my "current" status. After looking at these pics, I do see a big difference so I'm really happy about that. 50 lbs gone forever... 50 more to go. 1/2 way to goal and loving life. For those of you not tracking your journey with photo's or measurements, I highly recommend you do so. When times get tough, I will look at these photos and remind myself how far I have come.