I'm becoming that diet freak I use to hate :-/
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, 01-07-2014 at 03:27 PM (1734 Views)
I hate to say it...But I feel like I'm becoming obsessed with 1. The scale and 2. What I eat
And that just makes me wanna eat more. I know I don't eat nearly as bad as I use to before my weight loss surgery...but it's so hard to put that scale away...I actually may just hide it sum where...not only that..I'm always counting calories in my head...or subtracting calories when I exercise...and lately I'm always thinking "gosh I've eaten a lot today" even though all my food has been a good portion and would fit on a coffee plate.
I eat usually 1/2 a rice pudding for breakfast and few slices of bacon..for lunch..I usually just do a meat..for dinner I do a vegetable and a meat..I drink the sugar free naked juice in between..a small 4-6 oz one and of course my water. Of course this all varies cuz I may have a vegetable snack in between..California snackers with cheery tomatoes,avocado and salsa on a cracker are my fav..sometimes I may have a small piece of chocolate as a snack...is that bad? My meals seldom go over 300 to 350 calories. But I've become that person that I can't stand. I actually look at what other people are eating and think to myself.."omg are they gonna eat all that? How can they eat that at all.. That's so not healthy" lol!
I feel like I'm becoming obsessed.. If anyone was to say the things about eating too much or " omg are u gonna eat that?" ..if they had said that to me..a few months ago..I would have been so annoyed..and now I'm that person. Initially I found it funny but now I'm just becoming annoyed with myself..
Ugh...I'm sitting at 257 now...no weight lost in about 4 days..and I hate when I hit that plateau..I've only gone down 1 sz..and yes it hasn't been 2months yet..but ugh..that scale..I take satisfaction in seeing a pound drop..and when the scale doesn't move that's when I grow worried .
Tell me Sumone else obsesses about this..sigh