I'm fat because I depressed and I am depressed because I am fat.....
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, 10-20-2013 at 09:48 AM (2082 Views)
That was my motto: I'm fat because I depressed and I am depressed because I am fat.....
For any of you teachers out there, will understand what I am going to say next... Education today sucks. The new Common Core standards, Teacher Eval., and everything else in teaching today just sucks. There are tooo many changes happening at one time and it is very stressful, not to mention, I am putting in 50-60 hour work weeks.
Stress... what does it do to us? It "eats" us alive in many aspects. It affects everyone different. For me, I used to eat my way through stress and depression. As I am sure many of you did to. Depression is a vicious cycle. If you have ever dealt with it, you know what I mean.
Winter is the worst for me, I would (and am hoping it is different this year) be depressed all winter long. I'd eat and eat. I would plan on what I would comfort me that night. I would think, I can eat this, it doesn't matter, I am already fat or I can eat this in because (insert a time frame - next Monday) I am starting a diet or start working out, etc. I was constantly on a diet. I lived on a diet. Night time would come and I'd be off it...Oh, I eat so well today, I can have this tonight. The excuses came and I believed them.... I made every excuse to give me the reason to eat.
With all the stress I've had lately,the old we would have eaten everything I could to comfort the stress, make me feel better, which it never did. Misery loves company and that is what "crappy" foods make me feel- miserable....and then I'd become depressed and eat and become more depressed and eat more, and it would continue. Bringing me to my motto: I'm fat because I depressed and I am depressed because I am fat.....
Recently, I was talking on the phone to a teacher friend, she said to me. "I am going to go and take a bath. Then asked What do you do when you are stressed?" I sat there for a minute and thought. Nothing? What do I do? Surf the net and play mindless games... You know that not once did I think of food as the answer. It wasn't until later when I was in bed thinking about - what do I do when I am stressed, did I remember that food was ONCE the answer. I was so delighted that that wasn't an instant option for me. Not any more.... I have learned that eating doesn't cure anything except hunger. And I am hoping that the new me continues with this... and I am wishing else who is (was) fat b/c they are depressed and depressed b/c they are fat that their cycle leaves them to.....