i just read your rant....... and i absolutely loved it! I am scheduled to have my surgery on OCT 20 . so i have a little time to try and get my body ready for this to happen. yes im trying to lose some weight before time. But what you said makes perfect since to me. im so glad that i seen what you wrote and kinda how things work. and yes you are right about newbies giving advice. there are some that have scared the piss out of me. i also will be having the same surgeon. But the big question for me is why in the hell was you strapped down ????????? what in the hell???? Like did everyone just skip over that part?? also where is it again that i can get your book/ rants about things ?