Just come back from my 8 week post op check up and also had my first weigh-in in 4 weeks. In total I have lost 40 pounds and I must say I'm feeling pretty good. BUT by far what I am most filled with is, an absolute sense of peace and serenity that finally, for me, my 30 year WAR with myself (using food as the weapon to destroy myself) is FINALLY OVER! I don't think I can find enough words to express my profound sense of relief. I have laid down the guns and the table I now dine at is the peace ...

Just got home from hospital this morning - spent 3 nights in hospital . Feeling reasonably well today and so the journey to new heath and wellbeing continues. Just wanted to mention that, the very thing that stood out for me while I was recovering in hospital is that, this path we have chosen is a bloody tuff one. Yes indeed, it takes a lot of courage and determination to go through this! And yes , we know the rewards can be great but that doesn't change the fact that we commenced, at times, profoundly ...

Sitting here the night before my operation I had an overwhelming need to reach out and say, thank you so very much to all the people who out there - who of course, I will never meet in "real life" but people who have been willingly to be vulnerable enough. to opening their hearts and minds to others. It is very humbling to receive such a gift. I especially want to thank people who asked for my friendship in a more formal way ( through requests. Also, it would be totally remiss of ...

Had a thought today!

You know for me it's all about food while at the same time being nothing about food. Food is food - meaning that, unlike us humans food as no values, morals or ethics, it's just food. And, the crazy thing is of course that, for millions of people in the world they simply do not have enough food to keep them alive, so they end up dying prematurely. I'm pretty sure these people (who are truly starving) wouldn't be looking at a burger or a piece chocolate and ...

Originally Posted by BandMom5

Originally Posted by Friend

I hate food.
I hate the way I need it, the way I think about it, the way I feel when I eat it and the way I feel after I've eaten it.

This surgery is definitely right for me. I want to not be able to stuff myself full of crap Chinese buffet because I just had a crappy day and I hate everyone and haven't eaten all day and its just easier to get the buffet on the way home then warm up leftover grilled chicken.

What is wrong with me? At what point in my life

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