New Chapter for Me!
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, 05-20-2014 at 08:19 AM (1776 Views)
So I thought I'd give this thing a whirl. I'm exactly 2 weeks post op today! I'm so glad I made this decision because I need to be healthy for myself and my child. I was sitting and thinking about the poor food choices I used to make...My thought process,"Hmmm....taco bell sounds good but I really want a piece of crispy chicken.Oh hell I'll get a cpl of tacos then go to the KFC drive through and get a meal for later so I won't have to get back out."I thought this was normal because it became routine for me! You try to educate yourself on the surgery and read all you can before finally being approved but no one really tells you about the mental hell you go through by simply not being able to chew food for two weeks. I will admit I broke down on day 5 and chewed a piece of food just to get the flavor and then spit it out.When I was caught doing this by my 8yr old I felt ashamed and said to myself,"get your shit together girl!you did this to your body and now it's time to suck it up!" So I got it in my head to walk asmuch as I can and stick with the full liquid diet that my surgeon has put me on. I'm happy to say that i'm down 18lbs in 14 days. I didn't think it was going to happen that fast but it is! My family is starting to tell by saying,"your face looks so much smaller," or"your back doesnt look as wide." You forget little things after hiding behind your weight for so long. I forgot that I have a beautiful smile. I got to the point where I would never show my teeth because it would make my face look fatter smiling with an open mouth/. what a crazy thought process! Like I said I'm new at blogging and hopefully will get better with each time I do this. I really want to keep a record of my thoughts&emotions through this journey and hopefully help somebody out if they are going through the same thing I am