Well I had my surgery 2 days ago. I have not posted at all because I didn't know what to say. Leading up to surgery I didn't know whether to be happy, nervous or embarrassed. Crazy right? After my pre-op and losing 14 pounds, I had it in my mind I can do this without surgery. As you can see that didn't happen...a peace came over me and I went through with this opportunity given to me.

So I thought I would go back to the sight to see how things went for others post-op. At one ...

Unbelievable, it's almost my turn for surgery and seeing my name in the next week's surgery list has left me with mixed emotions. Sad because I'm leaving behind food which has been my everything, scared with the unknown outcome but staying positive, numb because I let it get to this point, and overall happy and anticipating a new beginning where I can start really liking what I see and love myself.

So today my journey officially begins. The last couple of months I have had a hell ...