One day at a time, at its best...
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, 07-13-2017 at 07:08 PM (3272 Views)
So a year after surgery I find myself Plateau at 170- 179 pounds...
I stop losing loads of weight back in February 2017. I also stop hitting the gym, as I had gotten myself a part-time Sephora job. Before getting the Sephora job I was at the gym 4-5 times a week. My skin can thank me for that. I unfortunately started drinking heavily when I got the second part time job. I was getting extremely depressed over the fact I couldn't really eat either and it had been well over 9 months after the surgery. I was still having a hard time eating so I turned to Alcohol for comfort. And I couldn't stop. I had become that alcoholic they warn you, you can become after the surgery if we aren't careful. So all of that plays a factor of my plateau. And I have no one to blame then myself for not catching the warning signs of my rapid dependency on alcohol. I sit here now typing away about a lot that had been on my mind about this plateau that I have been dealing with. I realize how much shame I have because of it and how I compare myself with my sister who also had the gastric sleeve done as well, she stands at 4'10 and 110 pounds and I look at myself ashamed that I am not even close to what she has accomplished. I have to throw all that shit away and live my happy sober life that I live today. No I am not 110 pounds but I feel healthy and happy. Glad to be back at the gym and somewhat controlling the calorie intake. I don't understand how I can hit 1300 calories so quickly when we have a little stomach with not a lot of room for much, but somehow Nydia gets it done. Coffee creamers and Starbucks will be the death of me I swear.
Thanks for letting me ramble.