I can say... I am struggling. I have been at 170 for at least 8 months (If I include the 2 months since my last post). This is the longest stall... it if is indeed a stall. I am beginning to think this is just my foundational weight and this may be the end of my journey.

I still eat half meals... I can eat almost everything... but will upchuck what doesn't agree with me. I go to the gym daily and have event attempted Hot Yoga to shock my system.

I started at 235 ...

I know that this is journey... I know that I shouldn't be so preoccupied with the numbers.

But now that I am able to get on the scale and actually not have an anxiety attack... I find that I am weighing myself weekly. And the Damn thing is stuck between 170-175!!!

It has been that way for the last 2 months! I remember going through the 180's thinking that I would never break the stall at that time. But when I did... It gave me hope! But here we are again!!!! ...

NOW GOING INTO THIS... APPROXIMATELY 7 MONTHS AGO... I WAS FULL OF HOPE AND ANTICIPATION... ALWAYS PREOCCUPIED WITH THE OUTCOME. Always wondering about if this journey would yield results and if the possibilities were real.

As I look back on the last 6 months... I can't pinpoint the exact times when the weights came off... if I was doing something purposeful to make it happen... or if I was even reassured about the process. All I could literally focus on was... FOOD... can I eat ...

I find that we can often be our own WORST critics. I know that I have had a struggle with the reality versus my own warped body images and disbelief in possible success. I often wanted to disguise this as being HUMBLE and grateful that I just feel better on a day to day basis since I got sleeved. But really it was a buffer in case the sleeve didn't pan out to be the success that it has for others.

I have spent the last four months... still dodging the scale, still dodging the mirror, ...

Everyday... all day... people i encouter everywhere are saying... "You are so pretty!" Wow... You look so pretty. Pfynss... you are so pretty!

Now I know this is a good thing. I truely appreciate every compliment and every word.... each gesture of kindness. And I remain humble each time I say 'Thank You'!

I still struggle with eating, getting foods to stay down, getting enuff calories, not upchucking and not being so consumed with eating and weightloss. ...