first time blog post
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, 12-15-2014 at 08:18 AM (1340 Views)
OK so going to try this blog thing. Feeling down so thought maybe writing it down might help...? idk. I don't usually buy into group therapy kinda things, or support groups. I know people say they are the greatest, but I don't get it. But thanks in advance for any uplifting comments (if any lol). I did think that expressing myself might self help me...
I am just 3.5 weeks out. I am miserable. I know I read regret was common initially afterwards. and I probably just don't have my mind right. But I just want to eat!! I am craving a Chipotle salad sooooo bad!!
I roughly followed pre-op diet for months before my surgery and lost 50 pounds. That was with cheating but I felt pretty accomplished. Then 3 weeks before my surgery i went on a cruise and gained 8!!! so when i started my two week liquid diet before surgery I had some back tracking to do!
My last official post-op weigh in I was down 12 more pounds. I have been allowed to start my doctor's phase one of soft foods (fish, over cooked veggies, eggs, yougart,) I do ok with yougart. And I had an egg yesterday. but i hate the stuck feeling and actually threw up last night after trying to eat some green beans (which I had eaten previously just didn't go well last night).
I just want to eat. I'm not talking a big mac, a healthy meal would be fine. I'm not hungry and now scared to eat after throwing up. That was not fun. I'm sick of protein shakes, but I do love the Unjury chicken broth, but I'm even getting tired of that.
well that was my vent. Seeing it written I feel like a whiny baby. I knew the post-op situation. I was fully educated. Just didn't think it would be this bad.