After a few month delay for work related issues and emotional hesitation... its finally here! I made the appointment and went this morning to get my pre-diet started. My emotions are all over the place. I know this is the right decision for me and my family. I am ready to live my life.

I also know that I would be nuts if I wasn't at least a little apprehensive. One of the things that comes to mind the most often is the idea of "never agains". I know that in moderation and with time all things are not gone forever. However, getting to that point makes me nervous. I have the determination, or at least I will once the limitations are physical. The permanence is daunting

I know that I will question myself 100 times between now and surgery day. I have a husband and friends around that support me wholeheartedly, and I am going to depend on that. I would love my mother's support, but I have not gotten up the nerve to talk with her about it yet. Now we just found out that she has some health issues of her own and her personal stress over that keeps me from adding to it, as I know this will. She wants me to be happy and healthy, but she is a naturalist and believes that surgery for weightloss is not necessary. If you just take a complete healthy approach and stick to it you will get the desired result.

Its a no wonder I don't sleep... thoughts thoughts thoughts going round and round and round.

I look at all of your pictures and read your stories and can't wait for the day that I can have success stories of my own to share. For now I will just have to find my encouragement and motivation through you. I look forward to the journey ahead (I think)... lol