So I have a little body dysmorphia. I always have. Back when I was young and in HS I always thought I was fat when I clearly wasn't looking back at the pictures. I was thin. I was fit. When I was fat....it flipped and I was partially in denial. I never thought I was as obese as I was until I saw pictures of myself. When I looked in the mirror I would think I wasn't that big. Clearly I was. Whenever I would go shopping I would always pick up jeans and think they would fit and were most likely too big. Then I would go try them on in the dressing room and feel so sad and defeated. Either they would not go up at all, not close, or even worse....I could force them shut and look like a can of biscuits that had exploded. Rolls and fat busting out everywhere.
Now I have the opposite view of myself. I think I am bigger than I am. I went to buy some smaller jeans. I kept grabbing stuff thinking it looked to small and it wound up being too big. Not a bad problem to have, I might add. Long story short, I ended up finally finding some size 1 juniors jeans that fit. (I am 4'11" so this is not a crazy size.) I was really shocked that I was wearing a 1. I don't think I look like a 1. When I tried the 3's they were clearly too big on my waist and did not lay flush. They also sagged a lot in my butt/hips/thighs area. Then I found a sweet little black strapless dress for my birthday next week. It was on sale for $14.40. I love me a bargain. I will post pics next week when I wear it for my party.
Today I am going on another wine tour. We are going for a friends birthday so I am excited about that. Get to wear my new clothes that I bought last night. I have not bought nearly as many clothes as I thought I would. I think part of it has been the speed of weight loss over the past 10 months. I also think it is knowing that I will be staying this size. I want to see what weight my body finds to be it's new normal set point. So far it seems to be 113. So we will see.
As for my professional designation, that is moving right along. I am half way done. I will be starting the 3rd portion tomorrow. I know if I put my mind to it I can get it knocked out in less than 3 weeks. I intend to be fully completed by the end of October if not sooner. Fingers crossed I can keep up this stamina.
Well sleevers, I am off to get ready for some fabulous fun with friends. I hope you are all having a wonderful weekend. Big hugs!