I'm so scared of having surgery. I'm so over this battle with my weight and my husband and I have talked about it and we both know that I wont be able to loose the weight "the old fashioned" way. In the back of my mind I think that I'm being selfish by putting my life at risk so that I can be 140 lbs again. I don't like going anywhere because I know people look at me and and wonder what the hell happend to me! Ive gained 75 lbs in the past 4 years and it keeps going up and up! I feel awful all the time. I feel like there is a person inside me that wants to get out and LIVE!!! My family loves me unconditionally and I know that, but I'm unhappy and just want to be happy again. Removing 3/4 of ones stomach seems so drastic that I don't think I've got my head wrapped around it yet... Not to mention infection, blood clots and the things that can go wrong. Anywho, thats how I'm feeling today. I so proud of you that have had the surgery. You are so brave.
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