Hi all
I am a newbie on here and have been busy stalking the pages for weeks now to gather as much information as I can so I can make my final decision about whether or not to proceed with surgery! I have to say it's a wealth of information and it's great that everyone shares their experiences (the good, the bad and the ugly). Thanks all for being here and for being so honest and open with your journey.
I am not sure why I am hesitating with this - deep down I know it is going to work for me. I think the issue for me is the thought of not being able to go out and enjoy meals with my family and friends like I do now - the pleasure I get from eating, cooking, sharing meals, etc is immense. I somehow think that I will resent it and see it as a form of torture or discipline for being naughty. It's also very permanent.
A little about me.....I don't eat too badly - I keep a fairly simple diet (high protein/low carb) and keep around the 1200-1500 calories per day - but I definitely have moments where I eat way too much. My problem is that if I don't exercise, even on a calorie reduced diet, I gain weight. For example, in January 2014 I was weighing in at 81kg (178-ish lb) and I only got to that weight by doing three personal training sessions per week and running 10km/6 miles 3 mornings per week. It took me a year of doing this to lose 20kg/40lb. My trainer was baffled about why I wasn't losing more weight and more quickly. Unfortunately in the December of 2013 it became too cold to do my runs in Central Park so I switched to running on the treadmill. On the very first day of doing this, my ankle swelled up like a balloon afterwards. To cut a long story short I got a stress fracture that day and it put me out of action for about 3 months. During that time I developed plantar fasciitis in my other foot so was laid up even more. It is now a year later and I still have the plantar fasciitis but it is finally getting a little better. The bad news is that I have regained the weight and now weigh in at close to 100kg /220lb. I just cannot maintain a weight without exercising like an athlete.
I have always been very active but about 8 years had a serious back injury and that was the start of my demise in terms of weight. It resulted in nerve damage so I have a weak left leg (but thankfully I no longer limp - I have that sorted). I was so excited when I was able to start training and running again and then very disappointed when it all came to a halt. I love exercising.
The reality is that I'm not getting any younger (will be 44 on my next birthday) and keeping up an athlete's training regime isn't going to be possible so I need to manage my weight in another way and that is going to have to be cutting down on the calories - which is why I think the sleeve is the perfect option for me. But there's a few things holding me back or that I haven't really been able to get clarity on so hoping others might be able to send me their thoughts/experiences with the concerns I've noted below.
My concerns are:
- I travel for work - how have others handled travelling? Especially in the early stages of post-op? when will I have the strength/energy to drag around my suitcase and laptop?
- What is it really like two years on and you still can't go to a restaurant and enjoy a full meal - does it feel like some form of torture for being bad pre-op?
- How bad really is the hair loss? I have thin hair now and lost a lot when I was going through my back issues so this side affect is scary to me
- What do the scars look like?
- The permanency of it scares me (I think). How have others reconciled with this? Or does the outcome wipe the fear away?
Finally, I live in NYC (midtown west). If there are any other NYC sleevers out thereI would love to know about support groups or other avenues of support that might be out there.
Thanks
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