Feeling Feelings
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, 08-26-2014 at 05:08 PM (1785 Views)
I know that the toughest part of this journey is the mental game. I also know that what led me to being overweight was turning to food to cope with emotions (and for me that was ANY emotion...positive or negative.)
It's interesting how deeply engrained those habits are. My grandfather died yesterday (he was 96, so had a long and rich life.) Nonetheless, I was sad. And this is a big week for us. We are closing on a house (that we're selling), big stuff happening at work, suppose to have a mini vacation over the weekend, and all kids sports start up again this week (that alone is craziness.) Need to schedule a quick trip to Omaha for grandpa's services now.
So when I got home from work yesterday I just wanted to eat. And eat crap. I had some peanut butter, not the best choice but not bad. And then I had a very small but rich piece of ice cream cake. Not good choices. I threw up and then felt physically ill the rest of the night. Instead of going to the gym or walking the dogs, I sat like a slug with my iPad.
But I'm trying to not beat myself up too much, this is a learning process. I won't make the same mistake again. Now my opportunity is to brainstorm a list of other comfort options I have when this happens again.
I've been successful the past 2 months with coping without food, but yesterday it was just a little too much and I had nothing else to fall back on. I'd love suggestions from others.