by, 01-04-2017 at 06:38 PM (212 Views)
Okay gang, just keeping it real.
As I am waiting to hear from new job prospects, idling and boredom are getting the best of me!
I had a cup of coffee and found an old bag of mini biscotti in the pantry; I told myself I could have three and next thing I know I was reaching for the last one. There were only six, but still! Self-control was out to lunch.
I am not beating myself about the biscotti, but then about an hour or two later I ate two beef sticks even though I felt a little sick to my stomach. I just had this desperate need to chew/eat something; that is what is scaring me right now.
I know I have been letting my guard down, and I have made enough excuses, but the truth is that I need to get back on the wagon. I need to clean house! There are too many variables that are making me vulnerable to boredom eating, and I cannot allow that to take over. I have an appointment with my therapist in two weeks, and I am going to call to see if she can see me sooner. It seems like my autopilot is still not set on "make healthy choices" yet.
Please keep me in your prayers.