I'm not even sure if anyone can properly address my problems but I am at a place where I need to do something to figure it out. I'm coming up on two years out from m surgery and yet I still feel like a big, fat cow! I'm now in a size 2 and have been told I have "disorganized eating". How is it possible that what everyone else sees and what I see are completely different? I am doing my best to focus on protein but quite frankly lately I'm just exhausted and when people tell me it looks like I'm starving myself to death it makes me wonder????
It's not like I want to be fat again but I have to wonder what I have done to myself? 2? That is freaking ridiculous but yet I look in the mirror and see fat.I now consider myself a fat anorexic. What the heck is that?
I wouldn't change havving the surgery I just wish I could better understand what I am going through now. I feel lost in a world of confusion that I signed up for.